Friday, March 11, 2011

im on this too much.

17 minutes ago 10:05pm 11 March 2011
21618) Today, I figured out I’m not addicted to restricting, or starving, or purging. I’m just addicted to being empty.
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4 hours ago 5:57pm 11 March 2011
21579) I could tell all of them what I’m going through, about this disease that controls me. But then again, I could also punch them all in the face forty times in a row, that’d probably hurt them less.
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6 hours ago 4:23pm 11 March 2011
21563) I cut for the first time last night. It was two in the morning, and I woke up crying over the past few day’s binges. I picked up my scissors and dragged the points over the skin of my thighs, just little scrapes, but enough to draw blood. When I woke up this morning I smothered the scratches in makeup and band aids and tugged the hem of my dress down all day. I was so ashamed. I never thought this would happen. I never thought I’d do this.
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8 hours ago 2:25pm 11 March 2011
21545) I am at a healthy weight right now, but I feel sicker than ever.
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8 hours ago 1:56pm 11 March 2011
21540) You have absolutely no idea.
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