"ohno. i never ment for this"

right now im prob going to have to drop everything to puke, again.

woke up, vomit.

nausea. my insides ache. they feel crampy and stabby and wrong.

this is what i get for eating.

yesterday i woke up feeling emptier, and very...not-like-this.

last night i had horrible dreams.

a friend tried stabbing themselves in the chest with little nail scissors and i wrestled them out of her hands but the excitement made her heart stop. i felt her body tense, and she just looked at me and said, "ohno. i never ment for this" and we cried as she died.

now im crying like a baby. and i feel sick again.