.maybe you can.

it took me ten minutes to stop throwing up after my stomach dropped.

i was getting ready to sleep.

managed to tightly curl up, like thatd keep what needed to stay inside trapped.

i think my heart stopped for a second.

like what?

i dont know, but my stomach turned.

and i ran, and my head started hurting, but i made it.

i cried. and i got frustrated.

and i puked, and cried, and dry heaved.

i thought i got it.

so i tried to find it.

my hands shake too much.

i got there, but i started sobbing and wanted to throw up again.

i keep mixing my feelings.

im pissed.

i cry like a bitch when i want to take a hammer to someone's head.

if you can imagine.

anger and worry, love and confusion, and emptiness and sadness and anxiety.

i cant see it.

i wont see that.

i suppose im a weak person.

i care too much to shut down.